I have many things happening on the medical front -- some give me hope. But I don't want to hope too much or too soon. That too feels old, tired and stuck. New and shifting symptoms. Yet even the newness in the continually shifting new-normal feels old. Yeah, relentless. It could be worse.
I so have given up on whit and try to find the humor in my lack of . ... now absurd I can do that!
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. Sometimes it is just so hard to wrap your head around what is going on. It is all just too much. For me it has been my experience at times that just when you can't take anymore God throws in a good day to give you a break and make your spirit and faith strong again. Wishing you well and praying for you.
ReplyDeleteLove your honesty and eyes-wide-open stance, not that it will change the outcome necessarily, but we do the best we can, don't we?
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kmilyun - Sounds like you're ahead of me. I need to let go of the perceptions of others.
ReplyDeleteMaria - You hang in there too -- hope you get your surgery soon.
Judy - Good to hear from you. Yes, we do the best we can. Sometimes I have expectations that are a smidge high for myself. Been enjoying your haikus.
yeah...sometimes this whole chronic illness crap feels pretty darn relentless...we do our best to seek peace (like in the cartoon) and then "KABOOM"...another random handgranade shows up!...(or blows up)...and then...we gather up the pieces best we can and breathe into peace as well as we can. Picking up the pieces over and over again is an interesting way to get to really know our parts though (not just physical, of course, mental, emotional and spiritual pieces too!)
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Laura - your comments led me to think of a twist on Judy's "peace be with you". Maybe we should wish each other "may your pieces be with you".
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