It's odd and vulnerable being observed through my ups and downs of function through the day.
It's nice that they're getting used to how much time I spend groaning, stretching, rolling around on the floor with straps and/or digging into my muscles and hollering more.
It's amusing watching psychocat, Jake, as he wanders around disapproving of the new living situation.
It's sad and hard to sit by and watch my 77 year-old mother haul things up the stairs instead of saying, "Go sit down, I'll get that for you."
It's downright civilized not trying to work through this all. Naps are good.
It's scary, but not big bad scary, thinking about the heart tests I'll be doing today back at my "alma mater".
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Local alpine lake where I had my last solo hike and skinny dip a couple Falls ago. It was a beautiful day.
What a beautiful photo. I've been reading Reginald Ray's TOUCHING ENLIGHTENMENT, which is based in Tibetan yoga. He expands the somatic experience toward the end of the book to include those moments when we sense a strong connection to nature--a mountain, a tree, a place or even a moment. I feel your connections to your natural surroundings in your photos.
ReplyDeleteHolding you in my heart field today as you stress your own heart.
Love, Candace
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ReplyDeleteHi Donna,
ReplyDeleteLovely photo thanks for sharing.
Thinking of you.
Big hugs.
Love,
Herrad
Thanks Candace and Herrad. That little spot is tucked away in a corner on the lake. Special place.
ReplyDeleteIt was a trippy day but here's to great techs and nurses! Wonked *hard* later.
Such a wonderful place the lake is lovely.
ReplyDeleteI will not pretend to understand the feelings you are going through watching your mom go up the stairs.
After my strokes it was hard enough with my better half - parents tug at your heart strings in a different way.
Hang in there and how did the heart tests go?
Jan
Yeah, that little corner of the lake is sweet. It's four miles up to the main lake and it's enroute to a couple peaks, so there's a few folks around. However, this part of the lake, you either have to beat yourself senseless bushwhacking or know the hidden route to it and you usually have it to yourself.
ReplyDeleteThe chemical stress test was funky. Thought my head was going to blast off -- and the legs got rock-hard. But the techs and nurses were awesome. There were lots of steps to what we did and I was mostly carted around by Dad in the wheelchair but I could barely move that night and the next morning. Much better now. My gut says the tests are going to show my heart is ok. But...
Wow! That is a breath taking picture. What a place! I admire you. You are one of the strongest people I know. You have such a way of powering positively through adversity. You are an inspiration to me. You bring me peace.
ReplyDeleteWhen do you get the results? I hope soon as waiting would drive me nuts - then again many think I am nuts already -anyways . ...
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